betrayal

 

amaanatein mai pyaar ki
gaya tha jisko saunp kar
wo mere dost tumhi to thay
tumhi to thay

jo zindagi ki raah mein
bane thay mere humsafar
wo mere dost tumhi to thay
tumhi to thay

saare bhed khul gaye
raazdaar na raha
zindagi hamein tera
aitebaar na raha

dost dost na raha
pyaar pyaar na raha
zindagi hamein tera
aitebaar na raha

gale lagi sehem sehem
bhare gale se bolti
wo tum na thi to kaun tha?
tumhi to thi

safar ke waqt mein palak pe
motiyon ko tolti
wo tum na thi to kaun tha?
tumhi to thi..

nashe ki raat dhal gayi
ab khumaar na raha..
zindagi humein tera aitebaar na raha

dost dost na raha
pyaar pyaar na raha

zindagi hamein tera
aitebaar na raha

– shailendra

The radio reminds me of this beautifully sad song about lost love from Sangam. Mukesh’s baritonous voice lends an echoing depth to the sense of loss that the lyrics express. Perhaps it is not loss, but a loss that comes with betrayal, that the song sings of. An experience where your deepest secrets no longer remain secrets, where your secret-keeper breaks the sacred trust that founded your relationship. In those moments, one wonders if the person we now know is the same person we knew before. Were those tears real, was that sorrow real? Mine were, but were yours too?

wo tum na thi to kaun tha.. tumhi to thi.. 

A betrayal by one who is most intimate feels like a betrayal by life itself. The world feels like an intoxication, now receding. Reality dawns, and one wonders if life can be trusted – trusted to uphold your dignity, to take care of you, to bring joy, to pulsate with love? Perhaps not.

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~ by tdcatss on February 24, 2014.

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